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06 July 2008 @ 03:46 pm
I hate this part.  

I hate this part of writing a book.

I’ve screwed up. The point at which I’ve screwed up is pretty clear to me, and a fair distance back now. Most of what I’ve written can (probably) be used anyway, at least in concept. I just have to get stuff rewritten back there and rearrange everything. In essence, the synopsis had a better idea, but the story offered an easier path, and…

…look, by now I should know better than to take the easier path. It’s just, y’know, every time, I think, ‘Oh, okay, this is going to work.’ And it *could* work. It just wouldn’t be as good and I wouldn’t be as satisfied with it. And I can never quite figure that out _in the moment_, because it *does* work, just not as well as it should. So now I’ve got to grit my teeth and go back to the point where it breaks (and I *know* where it breaks, dammit) and see how I can fix it. In the current version, something has been accomplished that needs to *not* be accomplished, and…there could be death, backlash, or rebound instead, which would…probably keep Character A in danger & give Jo a reason to try to get him out of the picture, and which would probably lead to Character B’s introduction earlier in the story and make certain that once again, poor Jo doesn’t get a full night’s sleep throughout the course of this book.

Dammit. I hope I don’t have to chuck fifteen thousand words. I *hate* this part. :p

On the up side, I guess, I’ve re-read quite a lot of URBAN SHAMAN and COYOTE DREAMS, particularly, the last couple of days, refreshing my memory about stuff, and sort of to my surprise, I think they’re quite good. I thought re-reading them would be painful, but I’ve really been enjoying them.

ytd wordcount: 258,200
miles to Isengard: 75

(x-posted from the essential kit)
Current Mood: soreexasperated
S. L. Grayshadowhwk on July 6th, 2008 04:04 pm (UTC)
Best. Mood. Icon. Ever.
kitmizkit on July 6th, 2008 09:29 pm (UTC)
Why, thank you. :) :) :)
mecoopermecooper on July 6th, 2008 04:50 pm (UTC)
"Jo"? *perks up*
As in Joanne Walker? :)

forgive the gushing ... but Urban Shaman was a great read. I'll be happy to see more of that series. You've just bumped Kate Elliot off the top of my TBR list ... Queen's Bastard is now next on the pile.

As for the 15K words ... all I can do is cringe in sympathy.

kit: underthehoodmizkit on July 6th, 2008 05:32 pm (UTC)
Yup! I'm working on the fourth Walker Papers right now, and am contracted for books 5 and 6. :)
Lady Doomlithera on July 6th, 2008 06:28 pm (UTC)

You know you won't be satisfied unless it is right.
kit: walkerpapersmizkit on July 6th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I know. *makes a face* Which is what's so damned annoying. It would *work* this way...but it wouldn't be right.

Oh well. I've got two pages of semi-coherent notes now, and will start revisions tomorrow. Grrr.
Lady Doomlithera on July 6th, 2008 08:11 pm (UTC)
*chuckles* Yeah. I understand how that is. I really do.
ladynladyn on July 6th, 2008 07:38 pm (UTC)
Do you find that rewriting is harder than getting new words written or is it just harder when stuff like this happens?
kitmizkit on July 6th, 2008 08:03 pm (UTC)
Revising is harder because I've got the wrong version of the story in my head already, and I have to re-shape it and pull it back around to what's right. When things are going right, writing first draft is much easier. :)
ladynladyn on July 6th, 2008 11:39 pm (UTC)
I was afraid you were going to say something like that. :(
kitmizkit on July 8th, 2008 10:17 pm (UTC)
Sorry. :/ :) It's true, though. But you do get better at revising, if that's any help... :)
ladynladyn on July 8th, 2008 10:18 pm (UTC)
At least there's light at the end of the tunnel. Right?
kitmizkit on July 8th, 2008 10:19 pm (UTC)
Yes, and we shall all pretend it's not an oncoming train. :)
ladynladyn on July 8th, 2008 10:22 pm (UTC)
LOL!! Thanks for that. Hopefully I can jump off the tracks before getting squished.
kitmizkit on July 8th, 2008 10:23 pm (UTC)
Nah, baby, jump *on* that train and ride it as far as it'll take you! NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEROW!
ladynladyn on July 8th, 2008 10:25 pm (UTC)
I like that imagery. Thanks for the encouragement. I think I'll find a train to put on my dream board now. Every time I look at it I'll think, "There's my ticket." :)
kitmizkit on July 8th, 2008 10:27 pm (UTC)
Yeah! *cheers*!
Pamelajeditigger on July 6th, 2008 09:04 pm (UTC)
I think it's pretty damned amazing that you realize it and admit it and can go back, chin up, I really do. I've only written the one book and it was years ago; I know i get frustrated now when I've done a few thousand words I have to revise.

But like Kat said, you won't be happy until it's right. Which is wonderful for those of us who get to read it. :)
kitmizkit on July 6th, 2008 09:29 pm (UTC)
I've gotten much much faster and better about recognizing it and figuring out how to fix it. I still invariably print it out, read it, think, "No, this will work," and then a day and a half later have to suck it up and face the fact that it really *won't*.

But it sure is nice to know somebody out there thinks it's worth it. :)
ladynladyn on July 6th, 2008 11:44 pm (UTC)
I think all of us here think it's worth it. We wouldn't be here cheering you on if we didn't. :)
Pamela: DeeDeejeditigger on July 7th, 2008 02:08 am (UTC)
WORD. :)
Amandatreehugginhippy on July 7th, 2008 02:22 am (UTC)
Why would reading them be painful? I think they're bloody fantastic! And I've been studying stuff like Shamanism, Wicca, ancient religions... well, you get the drift... for years. I'm VERY picky about the books I give a thumbs-up to in that regard. (I remember one incident where I literally threw a book in the trash because of the way it discussed "good" Wiccans and "black" Wiccans....)

Speaking of, I need to get a new copy of Urban Shaman. I lent mine to a real Shaman and, oddly enough, never got it back ;)

Personally, I think Jo is one of the best characters created in modern fiction. She's engaging and funny, she's got enough good qualities to make her a believable hero, and enough flaws to make her a believable PERSON which is more important. Of course, she can be kinda dumb (When your spirit guide disappears and some random person who can shapeshift into a SNAKE suddenly appears past your defenses, you RUN JO RUN! Don't trust it!) Ahem. Anyway...... looking forward to more Jo. This series is on my "most loved" shelf along with *checks* White Oleander, Memoirs of a Geisha, most of my Jennifer Weiner books, and my Phaedra Wilson series :) Oh, and the Uglies trilogy.

Once grad school is out for the summer, I intend to finally read QB and the House of Cards series and put those up there too :)

(Please ignore the anonymous posting... I thought I was signed in!)
kitmizkit on July 8th, 2008 10:20 pm (UTC)
Writers often don't like reading their own books, is why it would be painful. Part of the problem is you go back and you see things you'd do differently now, and you can't fix them!

I'm delighted you've liked the books so much, particularly in light of your own studies. :) And good grief, that's some very fine company you've got me in! Thank you! :)